BoakTree

Today…. November 20, 2011

Wasn’t such a great day in my life.

It went like this.

Take kids to church.  Only toddler will not stop spazzing.  So, I leave early, in hopes that a nap will improve the toddlers mood.  (It did not, he woke up and spazzed for the rest of the day pretty much.  So happy for bedtime today!)

Try to work on the freaking hated curtains I have been attempting to make for the windows in our house.  Oh my, I just want to buy some.  I’ve realized over the past year that I really DO NOT like sewing very much.  Not much at all.  In any case, two windows did end  up with some curtains today, not that I’m overly happy with the result.  Blah.

People come to see the horse I am trying to sell.  The normally calm, docile horse.  Who turned into some kind of maniac today for unknown reasons.  Obviously I did not make the sale since I wouldn’t even allow the young lady to ride due to the horse acting like she’d rather join the rodeo than have a nice walk/jog around the arena like she normally does. This is the horse who just yesterday was behaving wonderfully for her ten year old rider.  Why? (Why am I starting to believe that the Universe wants ME to keep this horse?)  “Dear Universe, I really don’t want to keep her, really.  Please send her next owners my way, I know the right person is out there!”

My whole family has been feeling agitated today.  I feel stressed, the toddler has been way whiny and off,  Anson feels as I do, the preschooler has been whiny and oppositional (okay that’s most days, but still).  Not sure what is up, but omg it was even effecting the horse and ponies!

So, now that I have locked myself in my office to vent to you all (or myself if no one reads my blog lol) I’ll move on to my point.

Today was not such a great day in my life.  We get those sometimes right?  I mean, okay so I had a kinda bad day, I’m feeling whiny and stressed and just overwhelmed with life in general.

But…..

I had today.  I have a life, a very beatiful one in fact.  And I love it very, very much.

And tomorrow I get a new today, that I can do anything I want with.  And I’m going to choose to be happy. 

Because even on our not so good days, or even our really, really horrible days, we always have a choice. 

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: “I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today.  I can choose which it shall be.  Yesterday is dead, tomorrow has not arrived yet.  I have only one day, today, and I am going to be happy in it.”

Groucho Marx

I first saw that quote while I was house/horse sitting years ago.  I was eighteen and about four months pregnant with my first child.  The woman I was house sitting for had it posted on her fridge,  and I hastily scribbled it down in my diary/book of quotes/crazy embarrasssing ratty old book I can’t believe I haven’t burned yet.  It came to be something I thought of quite often, and have never forgotten during the rough times in my life.

And it’s so true. 

Stuff doesn’t happen to us.  It happens for us.